Self discovery

While I go about my life trying to figure out why things happen I realize I am still figuring me out. I have two web sites and both take time and a part of me to put together. I try to live my life in the way I should and I find myself failing. AS the holidays approach I am finding myself in a mood that is unusual for me. I love the holidays I listen to Christmas music and drink eggnog lattes what could be better? I feel something is missing it could just be the stress I have been feeling or it could be I am up to my ears in writing. I entered the nanowrimo with my friend Reese and I am plugging away. I want to write and see it published and this is forcing me to actually get a book written. I know that I will have to go back and tweak and change things to make it perfect but I am doing it. Once this is done and I hit the 50,000 word mark I can say I accomplished something and I am proud of it. I have lots of things I still need to learn but, I am on my way on a journey of self discovery and I hope I like what I find. on one of my sites called the prayer journal I have added a blog just one more thing for me to do but I love to think and so when I think I write. have a great day .

Peace, Hope and Faith

Hello to any and everyone that reads my blogs. Sorry it has been a while since I have been here. I have been doing a lot of thinking about life and the things That happen. I Thought I had a brain tumor or at least that is what the Dr thought. It made me think about how I have lived my life. I am not where I want to be and I am not so sure how to change that. I believe to a point that we make our success but the one that really makes us or breaks us is God and during my struggle I have almost slipped away again not really meaning to but just in fear and frustration, I know that My God is in control and no matter what happens He will carry me when I need him to. My life is not mine but His and as long as I can remember that I will be okay. A while back I talked about hero's and again in the midst of my fear God was there for me so in my life I have two hero's God and my best friend in the whole world Reese. She helped me a great deal and gave me comfort and I will always be grateful to her for that. God sends people and gives things when He sees the need not when we see the need so I have peace about yesterday faith for today and hope for tomorrow.

Challenges

How often do we meet the challenges that come at us everyday? Think about it everyday a new challenge comes and sometimes I think we just don't want to face them. So we turn around and ignore them. Challenge brings change and with change brings the unknown. I know that I have a hard time with change and that makes me wary of whats to come. I try to face my challenges and to show them that I am willing to see what is coming. Life is a challenge and most people choose to live it everyday and to see whats around the corner. We live our lives with an excitement and adventure but, we seem to dread other things. Why not see all challenges as adventures and maybe some good will come out of it. I know the challenge of life is a hard one to do especially after the loss of a loved one. And when a child is involved their whole world is upside down, but those that take the challenge and go on are stronger people for it.

Teachers

I wanted to be a teacher but, due to some things I was not able to. The teachers I have come across today are not what I had when I was in school. My teachers at least most of them really cared for the students themselves not the paycheck. I am finding fewer and fewer teachers that love to teach for the pure enjoyment of it. What ever happened to when you teach you touch the future. I feel maybe the "old" pros are worn out and just do not have what it takes any more. That in my book is setting a child up for failure. It will mean more work for the child and more frustrations too especially if the child is struggling already. The no child left behind act is a good one but it needs to be enforced develope more programs for the individual needs of the kids in school today instead of throwing them in as a whole. Not every kid is the same but the system that is place seems to think it is and I for one am sick of seeing smart kids left behind. Where will our future be if our kids do not succeed?